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maybe not..

“Maybe?” I asked myself as I was sewing yesterday.
I pondered the reason why I put such a statement  on something I love to do so much.
I placed this sticker on my machine, sometime last year. I found it in some awesome junk mail. You know, the kind that gives you stickers?  {{{Stickers}}}
There was a NO sticker, a YES sticker and of course, the MAYBE sticker. I took the stickers and placed them in various areas in our home. I think I meant for it to be a joke at time.
The YES sticker was placed in the dish washing area. Yes was meant as an invitation for anyone whom, would like to nominate themselves for dish washing! {the real joke}
The NO sticker was placed at the bill desk. Bills…ugh…. need I to say more?
And MAYBE was placed on my sewing machine, because MAYBE I will get to have some real fun and sew today. But…maybe not.

Recently, many of my post this month on my blog have been about mindfulness and mortality. I seemingly have been growing in a new light and perspective of my life around me. I have caught a glimpse of what it might look like, when I’m in the last moments of my life, looking back on what I had and what I choose to do with it and feeling regret for not seeing what was really important in life. Be it the dirty laundry piling up sky high or the the little child who needs some help working out an idea.

As I continued to sew, that MAYBE sticker just wasn’t suited for me any longer. The sticker that should have been on all the things I love to do is YES. Always YES.     Saying no or maybe later reminded me of a quote that Marianne Williamson once said:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
― Marianne WilliamsonA Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of a Course in Miracles

Suddenly, the mundane cleaning and chores just don’t seem important  anymore. Sure, they need to be done here and there. But, seriously…am I going to hang for not doing the laundry today? But will I regret it later when I missed being with my children or filling their lives with as much laughter as I could? My eyes are wide open. It is really that simple. The hard part is to remember it and then practice it.

 In this moment, beauty is before us, when we stop and remember where we are. It is why I love sewing so much. I find that sewing is an exercise in spirituality, a practice of being present in the act of sewing. Some days, I find myself in autopilot, walking around without any real awareness of what I’m doing or just a human-doing rather human-being. The art of sewing and the art of living happily are the same. The common denominator is the mantra.. I am here.

When I am here, I see the sun, the trees and the sky…and I am happy.

I see all the true joy is around us. Our family and connection with loved ones.

Its those pretty little crafting messes that are just so colorful and free and full of life. I inhale these moments into my heart and mind.

Its those little hands that are always busy, reaching and playing. Coloring and painting. Dancing and singing. Thank you to those little hands.

The MAYBE’s in my life are no longer acceptable practices. I will no longer wait to make time to have a life of joy and wonder. I will take all those things I want to do, down from the shelf of my mind today, and do something, anything that rewards my soul and fills my pitcher.

Our moments to be here are right now. I won’t wait a moment longer to love them all! And remember, when you get lost and forget where you are, just look down at your two feet and say to yourself….

“I am here”. And all is okay.

2 thoughts on “maybe not..

  1. I just love that Marianne Williamson quote. This is really beautiful and such an often needed reminder. Thank you for sharing here!

  2. thank you for giving me the opportunity Julie! Im in awe of all the imaginative women on the team.

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